I'm always amazed by God's timing. I was scrolling through Emily Ley's Instagram feed this morning (she offers the most amazing goodies here) and came across Sarah Jane Studio's post. If you have an opportunity to read it, I think you'll be touched by her honesty and courage. I've experienced many of the same struggles and questions lately that she writes about.
I keep feeling this overwhelming tug on my heart to do more. When I say "do more", I'm not quite sure what that means. I have experienced some 'claw your way to the top' personalities in this business lately and perhaps that has made me think about how (and if) I want to grow my business. We have come to rely on my income and it's a scary feeling to have faith that everything will work out.
When I'm struggling with something, I pray. I think the 'ah-ha' moment I experienced yesterday was just enough of what I was ready to hear. I realized that perhaps I'm thinking way too big (I have a tendency to do that) and when I feel the weight of "doing more", why not start small? I have an opportunity to "do more" with the very people I treasure. I can "do more" with my kids. I can "do more" with my husband. Perhaps "doing more" can be more of sharing my heart with you all with the hopes that maybe my words are helping even a single person.
I'm not sure where I go from here. I still absolutely love creating new designs for Aedriel Originals. For now, I think I'll sell on a smaller scale/by request only allowing more time for creativity. I've been so busy with maintaining my business lately I haven't been able to do anything with the designs I'm constantly dreaming up. I have a strong desire to continue to share my thoughts here and on Instagram. I will continue Unplug for Love and I will devote more energy to my family.
I'm such a planner. I need to know what next year will look like, and the next year and then ten years from now. I think giving up control will be good. When I say "giving up control" I realize on some level I have zero control anyway. I just know I'm not ready to make a decision. I think I'll just sit back and see what God has in store for me and my family. If He has His way, it's going to be something amazing.